m'aimer pour qui je suis ou ne m'aimer pas du tout

hmm, i guess i havent updated in forever, so i guess i can. nothing much has happened. my last gf broke up with me, so yah. i guess that important. uh, im passing in school, actually, im diong very good, by my standards. A's and B's, and a c in math, but noone cares about math.
i get my cartlitage pierced monday. w00t! im not sure if i should go left or right though, any suggestions?i also get my permit, if i pass the test. so w00t!
well thats all really, might go biking its nice out.

I don't know if anyone really reads thia anymore, but im bored, so i will update it.
schools going alright, my grades are pretty damn good, if i do say so myself, and me and ariel broke up, like last week, and me being the whore i am, went and got another Gf,a girl that ive been crushing on for about a year, so its all good, im happy, and this is one very long run on sentence, which we are learning about in english, so i really should put a period in some time soon, but i enjoy thinking of the fact that youre all trying to read this in one breathe, makes me giggle. BREATHE, there we go.
um, plays going alright, even though im not in it, or involved in it, im doing tech, and watch for about 30 minutes after school, and i do enjoy it, so WAHOO, for all you in involved.
yah, im done. have a nice day

SALSA!!!!

ok, well its been a while. actually, a really long time. i havent found the time or will to update, hmm, i should work on that. nothing too extreme has really happened anyway. even though some of my friends are pissing me off, all because I'm going out with someone of the same sex. well its not even that, its that they dont trust her, i thikn, or they dont want me geting hurt, but if youre in a relationship, youre gonna end up hurt anyway, specially in high school ones. so i dont get my friends' logic, but oh well

I'm tired of being alone, im tired of my father never being home, my brother coming home drunk and stoned, and my friends not understanding. im tired of it all

ok, so i guess i will update. um nothing really has happened, christmas; spent all my time at my grandmas, then i had my bday, i had a lot of people over for 2 days straight. i finally went to barnes and noble to get my book, so im reading that, its pretty sweet, yah, im out

so are ouija boards real? cause if they are, they freak me out

ok well i guess i should update eventually, its been a while, i have had absoutely no time lately
i have been so busy with pippin, late nights til around 12 sometimes, it gets to you
i had to fight for a time to eat and shower, speaking of which, i weighed myself and i have lost like 10 pounds in 2 weeks, i dont think thats healthy, but its ok, i need to lose weight.
so i guess my depression is getting a little better, its helped knowing that i have friends that i can talk to, and friends who care. my grades have dropped horribly, what was about B's and A's have now dropped to F's , ugh this isnt good, but im doing everything in my power to get them up. oh well.

ok, well i havent updated in forever, so i guess i should
um, nothing of great importance has happened really. we finished the set for Pippin, all we have left to do is router some parts, tape that up, and then paint, and its all finished! its been long hours, but its all worth it. my dad finally dropped his GF. that made me rather happy. now all i have to worry about is her breaking in, my dad told me so, oh lovely. i have Tech today for pippin actually, i just dont have a ride yet. hmmmmm i got glasses. i guess thats important. i have a choir concert on tuesday, that should be awesome, we sound awesome. yah well thats all

Watching the stars
fade from the sky,
the leaves falling down,
the robin's last cry,
the grass turning brown,
I utter a sigh.
The hardest part
when watching love die,
is whispering softly
the final "goodbye".

dont you just hate it when you like someone, and you know you can NEVER have them no matter how much you try
no matter how many times i run it through my head, it will never work, and it just kindve pisses me off, the thought depresses me that i cant have this certain person(who shall remain nameless)

and now that i got that out, i feel not much better :P
so anyway, i think i might go see pippin today in jamestown, that is if i can find a ride, which would be really cool if i could.
yah that really consists of what is going on, working in tech with pippin for north, yah, thats all, im boring

well today i went to see cirque dreams with some friends
if you have ever heard of "cirque du soleil" its a lot like that
acrobats, wheel spinners, balancers, contortinists(sp), dancing, singing, anything you can basically think of, it happened there
it was the most beautiful form of human nature i have ever seen

i can never get the damn pictures to work, even though they are really cool

Your eyes are the windows to your soul. What type of eyes do you have?

BUTTERFLY EYES

You have Butterfly Eyes!
Positive Traits: Thoughtful, Intelligent, Humble, Clever, Open Minded
Negative Traits: Elitist, Conceited, Apathetic, Cold, Sarcastic

What elements do you have hiding in your soul?

Your Element is fire Mixed with hate.....you Will make the World shudder when you wake from your sleep the world will run in fear of your Shadow.You are Sephiroth

10 days is 3 years

am i trapped in my mind, or is my mind trapped in me
subconsiously im trapped in my own mind, showing me my true desires
thoughts spinning around, when will it stop!

well yesterday in my chatroom (religion 3) i came up with a pretty cool metaphor involving christinity and sports, so i thought i would post it before i forgot it

" Christinity is like sports, there are so many rules, and if you break one, you lose and go to hell!"

and i guess another one was how there are so many religions to pick from, its like shopping

" Trying to find the right religion is like shopping, there is so much to choose from, its hard to pick, Buddhism aisle 7!!!"

my dad is being so insensitive lately
i mean, im sitting around the house moping around, and he doesnt even notice, but imean how can he when he doesnt get home til fucking 10 oclock everynight
but when he is home he doesnt even notice his daughter, not the depression or anything about me
i bet he doesnt even care that i slice myself open every night because of him not caring
and what the hell is up with cindy
cindy his Girlfriend that friggin lives here now, well basically, i mean shes just about ALWAYS here when i am
and she never talks to me, and she never tries, she just hangs out with my dad, and of course my dads romance life is more importand than his kids' emotional states
but if i told him this, he would think he was the greatest father, casue we both go to school everyday, and do our homework and get good grades, but its not becasue of him, its becasue we have to fend for ourselves, since youre never home
but since you dont care, neither do i
so go be with cindy, go have your fun drunken nights at the bar and come home drunk, because i will go on living, even if you dont care to notice
you make me cry my silent tears, not my missing mom, but you, yourself, your whole being

stole this from ravyne_hawke who stole it from someone else

-Frog Prince-
You fear never being accepted. People need to look past the webbed feet and see the prince (or princess) within. Continue being yourself and people will learn to love you.

http://quizilla.com/users/TKR/quizzes/What's%

yah so i took this IQ test and got a 97, so that was pretty sweet
i decided to post what they said about me in here, cause i want to

The way you think about things makes you a Linguistic Architect. This means you are brilliant when it comes to language and words. You are also very good at understanding things on an abstract level. You are at your best when you put those two skills together to communicate new ideas and see how they fit into different contexts. You understand math and science on a gut level, even if the equations and science don't come as easily. You can use these skills to be a great communicator or to create a masterpiece.

How did we determine that your thinking style is that of a Linguistic Architect? When we examined your test results further, we analyzed how you scored on 8 dimensions of intelligence: spatial, organizational, abstract reasoning, logical, mechanical, verbal, visual and numerical. The 3 dimensions you scored highest on combine to make you a Linguistic Architect. Only 6 out of 1,000 people have this rare combination of abilities.



woohoo 6 out of 1000
makes me feel special

i want a downpour
i want it to rain so hard that everything gets shut down
massive flooding everywhere
you cant escape no matter how hard you try
so really, in a sense, i want massive chaos
i want yelling and screaming
i want pain and sorrow
death and destruction is everywhere

well im bored, so i decided to come here and say wahts on my mind, which at the moment isnt much
im glad to say that im not as depressed as yesterday, which i might say was quite horrible yesterday
i dunno, i just cant help it anymore
i just seem to get more and more depressed as the year goes on
does that make me bipolar? i dont think so, maybe it does
maybe i should go see a shrink again, i really dont want to, but i might have to, things just arent fun anymore
i shouldve just stayed on the anti-depressants like i was told to, but no, i had to be stupid and stop taking them